Practicing meditation has been a process. There are some days where I get in 5 minutes, and others where I get in a longer session.
What I found in the beginning was that I felt frustrated with how I couldn't stop my thoughts. Now when I'm practicing, it's about recognizing it and noticing, "Huh, there are a lot of thoughts on my mind. I feel anxious ".
That's what I used to feel 5 years ago before I started meditating.
I felt as though I had to prove myself to others all the time. I sought external validation throuqgh productivity. No matter what I accomplished, I felt like I couldn't stop.
Meditation is one of the techniques that pulled me out of this endless cycle of "performing", performing for others instead of for myself. Meditation instilled in me this quiet attitude, and an ability to perceive my thoughts from a distance without judgment.
These stress management techniques have released me from performing for others. With meditation and these other tools, I now feel free. I get to be present and enjoy what's in front of me, instead of worrying endlessly about the future. I get to be gentle with myself so that I can be there for others. I get to be fully alive and do what is only satisfying to me.
SO ARE YOU READY TO GET OFF THAT TREADMILL?!